nobody likes broken

FUCK ALL YOU GUYS. I NEEDED YOU AND YOUR NO WHERE TO BE FOUND. FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!

imagine breaking to make up over and over again but this time you break up and he doesnt want to make up. he doesnt love you anymore. WHY ? YOU HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE. what did you do ? why cant he love you ? why are those fucking feelings gone ? can you tell me ? why is god punishing you ? why wont he just let you be happy, why cant the person your in love with feel the same way. why are you ALWAYS the one with the broken heart while the others are perfectly fine. why are you the one wishing your life was over while the other person feels like there has just began. why are you the one slapping yourself in the face becasue you feel so fucking stupid for feeling the way you do ? WHY CANT HE MISS YOU ? WHY CANT HE LOVE YOU ?

when i said i loved you, i meant it. as much as i wish i didnt i do love yu. when you said you loved me you lied, because you left. you gave up on me. im so scared, im scared of living like this forever, with you in the back of my head telling me to nto fall in love because the person you fall for will not be there to catch you. theyll be there to watch you hit teh ground and shatter into a million pieces. everyone always asks me what did you see in him, hes a loser. i always tell them i dont know but in reality i saw my life in you. i saw my best freind and my lover. i saw our kids, i saw our love. i must be delusional because what i should have seen was lies and heart ache. lets me real noone will ever love me. NOBODY LIKES BROKEN and fuck im shattered, im almost impossible to put back together and tell me who the fuck would want to even put something thats broken back together. iv come to the realization that love just aint for me, i cant love anymore i just cant. i cant go through with the heartbreak it leaves me with. i love love but that bitch must hate me. im jus confuzzled on how you couldnt love me back, i was under the impression that my love was enough for the both of us. if anyone ever loved me the way i love you i would NEVER let that person go. NEVER. i wish that you could feel my pain jus for a moment. i want you to shead my tears just for a moment, i want you to think your life is over and take a walk in my shoes.

im at the point where i enjoy crying, it reminds me i have emotion. cuz when im not crying i feel like a wall.

goosetavo:

i think your gonna be the end of me. i can already feel myself falling for you. i can already feel those goose bumps when you touch me. i can already feel those shakes when you kiss me.
but shit i can also already feels those tears when you tell me you dont care. i can already feel the anger when you tell me you dont wanna talk. i can already feel trust leaving because i just dont believe what you tell me anymore. i can already feel the pain that you and so many other boys have made me fealt.

i remember i use to think i was in love, i use to think me and him were gonna last forevr. we didnt. i cried for days, fuck days i cried for months because the love of my life,  the guy i thought i was gonna spend the rest of my life with left me. i promised myself that i would never think about forevers, never utter the word love and never trust again.

then came you. someone i never expected, someone i never saw myself going for. i fell in love with you. Your my best friend, my lover becoming my everything and nothing scares me more. i dont wanna love you, i dont wanna trust you, and i dont wanna have my heart set on forever because forever only happens in fairytales. you make me so happy but shit you make me so mad. you make me so fuckin sad. the worst part for me of being in love is knowing that im in love. knowing that to get out of love is gonna be one hell of a ride.

damn….i wish i didnt love you.

love is that pull yu take from yur spliff with tears rolling down yur face that makes yu feel on cloud 9. love to me is maryjane.